October 20, 2005

Someone please tell me why I didn't wake up until 1:30 pm today? I hate that! The first thing I did was run for my toothbrush and some Listerine. And will someone PLEASE stop making me have nightmares?! I can't take it anymore. Not that they are being controlled by anything other than my own subconscious, but still. I can't get them to stop. So someone else is going to have to do it for me. Lately, it's been the typical bathroom nightmares, with a little heartbreaking added to the mix. Last night they were about Sean. Some blonde beauty was throwing herself all over him, and he just went with it and completely ignored me. You think crying sucks in real life? Try bawling in your dreams, with no way to stop. You wake up scared and frustrated... and then when there's no one there to comfort you, you start to cry in real life. So it's like a double dose. FUCK!

I tried going to a counselor last year, but she didn't do anything about the dreams. She helped me out with some relationship problems, but I think it's gonna take drugs to stop the nightmares. I just can't stand it! It's going on eight years and enough is enough!

I need some coffee...

Lisa blogged at 11:56 AM.
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