December 04, 2005

i am sick. again. my symptoms are remniscent of those which i experienced during my bouts of mono and strep. but i don't think it is either of those... or is it? i thought for a moment that i had developed bronchitis, but i don't really know much about that particular ailment. i was simply startled this morning, for i was sure i would hack up an entire lung if my tiny throat should allow it.

i used to write that way years ago. but lately, i haven't really given a fuck. i am annoyed because i started seeing this guy, matt. not dating, but we hung out a few times. when i met him, i wasn't that interested. then i started to get to know him, started to like him... and last night he totally shot me down, basically called me high maintenance, and said he doesn't have time to date a girl like me. he dumped me and we weren't even dating. and i soooo didn't think that i would be the "dumpee" in this situation. he was the shy one who had a crush on me first! but whatever. i'm not really mad about it... it just kinda sucks being rejected, whatever the reason might be. i dunno, maybe i AM high maintenance. i hope not. i don't want to be. i want a cigarette. i want to get laid. i'm in a bit of a dry spell. i want to get drunk without having to work the next day or be sick or almost fall asleep on the drive home. i want to work with people who AREN'T a bunch of retards. i don't want to do any more homework and i don't want to take finals.

i want a neck rub and a good night's sleep.

Lisa blogged at 8:56 PM.
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